isnt 'timing weird '..

 that crazy chick must have had a crazy husband reading  her diary if he found her password.. Im sure the best thing to do before she 'lost it ' was to delete it.

~me

[2newbeginnings09]

((((((((((((((((((((9Betz))))))))))))))))))))  She must have deleted her diary for that to happen!

   I sent out a letter to you the other day!  You've been strongly in my thoughts and prayers!

 I pray that your Christmas was FILLED with LOVE and BLESSINGS!

  HAPPY NEW YEAR Dear Sister!

   I love you tons!,

       Jewel

((((((((((((((Betz))))))))))))))) I love you and miss you!  Glad to see an update from you..sorry to read that you're not receiving the appreciation that you deserve.

  Praying that you and your family have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

   lOVE YOU TONS!,

         Jewel

"its been so hard this year that i am just happy to be breathing....still have a roof over our heads...food on the table...clothes on our backs....its been so hard this year that i am just happy to be breathing....still have a roof over our heads...food on the table...clothes on our backs...."

Ditto on this same sentiment. I refuse to watch Christmas movies because they are not the true meaning of Christmas. Perhaps some of us are so empty and depleted on the inside of any spiritual awakening that we choose to buy into this secular world of commercialism.

Wishing many blessing this Christmas! :)

RayOLight

Hi I just thougth i would let you know that I had a lil boy. I named him Julian and he is so great .  I am so happy to have him in my life , It feels so good to take care of a lil baby again ( nerv racking ) but fun and exciting. Here are some pic of him and his sis .

take care and god bless

Happy Birthday to your princess. I am delighted and excited for your new enlightenment. I guess at the end of the day many of us are just people ...... going through the same dilemas arn't we?

I enjoy your entries. I love your half cup scenario and how you see life. :)

RayOLight

"we have to cherish the small things that are so over looked now a days and be greatful for the love that we share at the end of the day its what we all long for...."

Yes indeed. I am glad you still have a home to call home.

RayOLight

I feel your pain.....I really do. This world has gotten pretty damn scary.

RayOLight

(((((((((((((((((((SisterBetz)))))))))))))))))) It's such a Blessing to hear from you! YAY to the Heavens for that!

  I've missed you too...and think of  you so very often...fForgive me for not writing recently, but I have been in the same shape with stamps.

  I was sorry to read that Alex had been so sick..so grateful to read that she is better!

  I am grateful that there is love in your home! YAY to the Heavens for that!

    Please continue to pray for Wayne to come to the Lord and to treat me with love and respect.

     Hope to hear from you again soon!

   I love you tons!,

      Jewel

 a favor to ask of all of you who used to read this dissapointedwife here. please take the time to delete any comments I may have posted to you. he is on a thing again of reading my comments, by a search under my names he knows of .. this being one of the biggest .

. Im asking please can you take the time. you can  do 'diary notes', by name . im sorry to ask this of you, but uim just tired of him seeing what i wrote & bringing it up. thnx in advance. ~me 

(((((((((((((Betz))))))))))) It's such a BLESSING to see an entry from you! I am so grateful that you and Rich had a good weekend! It's answer to OUR Prayers! YAY God!

   Yes, REJOICE!!!! We have sooooo very much to be grateful for and to rejoice about!

   Know that I send you MUCH LOVE! Miss you!,

                    Jewel

Hi, There girl

 well, i'm going on 8 months  and i was told that i'm having a boy!!!! I have never had a boy so, i really don't know what to expect.My daughter is 10 and i just push her out, but this might been a little more painful because its been 10 years sense i had a kid. Hopefully its not painful. Beside that i'm just hanging in there each day you.

 Well, enough about myself how have you been doing? I readed your entry and having a good cry now and then really helps. Just try to enjoy your self and focus on good things like a simple smile are hello from others.

((((((((((((((((9Betz))))))))))) So glad to see an entry from you! I miss you tons! Stopped and prayed over your finances!

     Glad that you are making some time for yourself!

   I love you tons!,

         Jewel

Thank you for your comment. I know I haven't updated in a while. I just haven't been able to.  been too busy and just haven't felt up to it.

I remember reading her diary but I don't think I can anymore.
how's your health now??

God bless you,
Dee.

First off i always go throw your diary and when you have bad times you always seem to have something positive to put down. Its just really good  to see that you have such a wonderful  look on life . I hope you are doing great and thank you for leaving me comments Because your comments are so heart warming and comforting to me.

oxoxox.thnx for your kind words.. blessings always .

~me

[dissapointedwife]

((((((((((((((((SisterBetz))))))))))))) Heart Hugs! It's soooooo good to see an entry from you! I've missed you like crazy!

   Glad that you feel God moving in your heart and life...things are really bad here.  But I am doing my best to get through them.

    Hoping to talk to you soon...though I can't be much help as I am really down.

    I love you tons,

      Jewel

I'm sorry you feel that way =[

*hugs*

Be strong!

Dee.

(hugs )

[dissapointedwife]

((((((((((((((Betz))))))))) Heart Hugs! I'm so glad and grateful to see another update from you! 

  Don't worry about what others say-they mean well and love you- But always remember that we are the only ones who can receive God's Guidance for ourselves and that we are the ones that will have to answer to Him in the end..and yes, we are called to Love with a higher love.

   I am praying for you to be clear on God's guidance!  I am here to support you whereever that leads! I know that He has your best interest at heart..and that only He can see the end from the beginning.

   God gave us each other so that we would have support and understanding and I thank Him for that!

    I look forward to talking to you again!

   Know that I send you MUCH LOVE and MANY PRAYERS!,

                      Jewel

(((((((((((((((Betz)))))))))))) I'm with you on this one sister...It sounds like we are learning and applying the same things...Yes, it is VERY hard. Especially when others may not understand.

   Still praying for you faithfully and sending you MUCH LOVE.

   Glad to see an update from you! I miss you!

   I love you tons,

        Jewel

Dear Sister Betz,

   Thank YOU sooooo much for the note! It was such a Blessing to hear from you..You have been soooo strongly in my thoughts and prayers! 

    I am so sorry that you are going through all of this and hurting so much!

    I sent you a letter out today...would have mailed sooner but had some problems getting stamps.

   I'm very sorry that I had to get off the phone during our talk...Wayne was waiting to go to the store- He was out of cigerettes.  He waited for some time on me.

   I soooo look forward to talking to you again! I want to be by your side to see you through this...Will be very busy today...Have to go to the attorneys and tonight we have to take off trash.. Wayne should be working tomorrow.

   KNOW HOW VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!,

                 Jewel

Betz.. thinking  about you .

 hope your ok. (hugs )

Knock , Knock I knocked at heaven's door this morning. God  asked me...'My child, what can I do for you?' And I said, 'Father, please  protect and bless the person reading this message.' God smiled and  answered...'Request granted'. Send this to seven people and  the one who sent it to you. By doing this, you have succeeded in praying for eight people today. 'Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.'

[dissapointedwife]

(((((((((((((((((99Betz)))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sooooo very sorry and sad to read that he has abused you in this horrible way..and that's what it is abuse...I know how it feels- been there with Wayne!

   I'm glad to see an update from you ...I suspected that something like this is going on.

   I hope that you got my letter and number- PLEASE feel free to call!

    I'm praying faithfully for you!!!!!!!!!

   I LOVE YOU TONS!,

         Jewel

((((((((((((Betz))))))))))))))))  I wonder what is going on...I am concerned about you.

   Wayne is taking a nap but when he wakes up I will ask him if I can give out this number..He doesn't understand online connections...all that he knows about being online is what he hears on t.v. which is about it being filled with perverts, fakes, and scammers.

   Please email me at jewelietsparkles@hotmail.com as soon as you can and I will email you back as soon as I see it.

   I love you tons,

       Jewel

hi.. ive deleted your comment, just cuz your ## was on there..

thnx . xoxox..  hope your doing ok.

~me

[dissapointedwife]

hey you ..

 in just wrnt back to like 6 entries..Im so busy w. my life..Im so behind w. my favs..

I have tears in my eyes for you.but happy ones too for being & staying so strong, and keeping the faith ...

 there were beautiful words of comanionship you wrote of rich, basically how you both have beent here for each other. thru it all.and knowing he wont let us go..and knows we try so hard, and  dont give up..I  want to talk to michale tonight of 'life.'.

ok more tears , see the small things he worries about, and i look @ my friend of what they have gone thru(you & others ), and how  the men  or women in their lives have stayed to support them ..that is love & it opens upthe special part ion our hearts

ok.get barrings christine .

I want to send you a BIG HUG thru the pc, hope you feel it..

 happiness always & God bless...oxxo

on that note..  I also wanted to send you this. xoxo

Mother's Day Glitter Graphics

Not everyone in the world understands that betz...

you know you're such a beautiful person<3

which cancer do you have if you don't mind me asking?
and how's your situation now?

God bless you my friend,
Love,
Dee.

(((((((((((((((Betz))))))))))))))))) I only have a few minutes online as Wayne is home and waiting on me...But I am going to run a copy of this entry and write you a letter in response.

   KNOW HOW VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU!,

           Jewel

why does one suffer more than others?  Why is one raped and another never sees such trauma?

[LovingJesus]

I like the picture of hope, it has a great meaning!!

God bless you!!

Love,
Dee.

I love the picture and the meaning   behind it . I can relate to the comfort that a man has to offer. It is so weird how a man at the end of the day  can  make you feel so comfortable and loved by just putting his has around you with out a word.

Well, I hope you feel better and my prays go out to you.

God Bless

good night

Nice entry. :-) I believe that you are a very strong woman and that you have gone through so much in life that the lessons of that agony teaches you the wisdom to be wise and knowing what you do, or feel and think in God's name. You believe in Him and love Him because you do that in your heart & soul. It is really a very nice story where your Rich dreamed about Joseph. I always believe that God communicated with us sometimes in our dreams - sending visions with so many meanings. Very nice and glad that your Rich is saved from that cancer too. Praise the Lord, honey.

Wish you a very nice day then! :-D

My Dear Sister Betz,

   Thank YOU sooo much for the note, the love, the prayers..I am soooooo very happy and grateful to have you back with us!

   I agree with what you wrote...we are called to act like Jesus did and would! Not easy sometimes but well worth it.

  I agree with you about taking things One Day at a time...that's all that we can do and we need to make the most of the gift of each day!

   I prayed for you this morning and thanked God for our sisterhood.

   I stopped and said a prayer over your job!  What kind of job is it?

   I soooo look forward to getting your letter! Thanks for writing!

   KNOW that I LOVE YOU DEARLY!,

            Jewel

((((((((((((((((((9SisterBetz)))))))))))))) There is no way to express to you how happy I am to have heard from you and to have your new address.

  I love you so very much...You are so very important to me that I pray that we NEVER lose contact! 

   I had 3 letter returned- see I was thinking of you so very often and issuing up prayers.

   I will put the letters in one enevelope and mail them tomorrow...And I will write a new letter soon!

   I'm proud of you for getting out..I know that took ALOT of strength..I'm sure that it did make Rich stop to think.

    I'm glad that he told you that he loves you! I know that he has to...You are soooooo lovable!

   I'm sorry to read that he's been hurtful as well... KNOW that I continue to pray for him and your relationship!

   I do understand what you mean about the Lord showing you that you weren' done..I seriously thought of leaving Wayne just weeks ago- even had it planned out...But then Our Lord showed me that I still love him, that there IS Hope and not to give up! 

   I have put our relationship and the outcome in God's Hands...

   Wayne has seemed to make some progress...we'll see.

   KNOW how very much I love you and how happy I am to have you back! YAY to the Heavens!

   Have a Blessed day!,

      Jewel

Hey there,

why did you move?

Jen

((((((((((((((((9Betz))))))))))))) I hope that you check in here...I miss you...I have a returned letter ....I'm wondering if you've moved...If you see this, please email me at jewelietsparkles@hotmail.com 

    I love you!,

         Jewel

hey you.. hope your ok..

 life is different sometimes..stuggles, etc.. but as longas we NEVER forget He is there to pick us up, with His arms wrapped right around us.He is the way , and the only..ONLY reason Im still strong, with no nervous breakdown.. Like I like to say ..let go, and Let God..xoxox

 stay strong & positive my friend...

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Beautiful picture,

I haven't been around much, life seems to be so busy. It's all I can do for now to try and keep in touch with my MDD friends just a little.

Hang in there.

Dear Sister Betz,

  This morning as I was praying for you..I was thinking about how very much I miss you! I've missed your council , encouragement and beautiful Faith...It helps me more than I can say.

   So I was very glad to see an update and a note from you! YAY to the Heavens.

  I totally understand what you are saying- as I walk the same path of trying to give unconditional love.  It's  hard sometimes. But I think that we are on the right path.

  Still praying for you and Rich each morning!

   KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU DEARLY!,

               Jewel

betz,

xoxox.. it wasnt you I was speaking of..oops.sorry , i didnt realize many wud  seem its them .. i was going to just write in 'that favs ' maybe i shud have .i hope i dont loose some favs i have made in here..

 It is hard when there are children involved w. the relationship..

 i guess after yesterdays service message of the husband doing what he is meant to do.Be a husband , just as the wife is SUPPOSEd to put those extras in.I guess Im just looking to be  appreciated, and a fav stuck in my mind too. Its about us being happy , and them keeping us happy as thery re supposed to .. i think you understand..

xoxox 's to you .. Im  sorry  that it opened up something for you.Im sorry if i upset you .

 It is true  He helps us get through so many tough times. It just stinks we have to go through the hurt , but   the scripture jamey shared w. me  when i told him 'Im at my ends w. the marriage '.. its true, but I need something to me going..

 He wrote this & i do understand, but I still 'need ' things too.. i dont hink jesus wud be uset @ me for leaving him(husband ) cuz I have beneeds he cant fullfill.

" Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me."

That is the clear message of the bible over and over.  We are called to die to ourselves and not live for this life.  It is a hard fact that we may not experience life's satisfaction at all on this side of heaven.  However, Jesus was clear that we are to obey our calling even if we don't get the response from people in this life as we would hope.  He did everything He was supposed to do and was crucified for it.  We have to expect nothing better and if we get better it is only by God's grace.   well, i keep this close near my office pc.. so I can read it. It doesnt make me selfish w. my needs as  'the other half', just   makes me soo husband dont give  at least 1/2 of what hes suppsed to.. ok.well gtg. emily was banned from tv since saturday 9 from her dad.. for her behavior ), and she wants to play strawberry strawberry cd rom for a lil. gtg. hugs to you.stay strong. `me

[dissapointedwife]

Dear Sister Betz,

  Your precious letter arrived on Saturday..I wrote back and will try to get it in the mail tomorrow! I've missed you sooooo much. Your letter meant the world to me.

  I prefectly understand where you are coming from in this entry...Wayne and I are on the same path!  God has told me that Sometimes REAL love is Long-suffering...We are to ask and to believe that we have and will receive!We are to forgive, to have compassion, to pray for, and to love our men into the men God created them to be!

    KNOW that I love you dearly and soooo appreciate your input and understanding!

     Talk to you soon Sis!,

          Jewel

Hope you feel better soon

Dee.